The Edge of Never by J. A. Redmerski

Published by: Hachette Book Group, November 15th 2012

Pages: 426

Purchased from:  Chapters | Amazon


Twenty-year-old Camryn Bennett had always been one to think out-of-the-box, who knew she wanted something more in life than following the same repetitive patterns and growing old with the same repetitive life story. And she thought that her life was going in the right direction until everything fell apart.

Determined not to dwell on the negative and push forward, Camryn is set to move in with her best friend and plans to start a new job. But after an unexpected night at the hottest club in downtown North Carolina, she makes the ultimate decision to leave the only life she’s ever known, far behind.

With a purse, a cell phone and a small bag with a few necessities, Camryn, with absolutely no direction or purpose boards a Greyhound bus alone and sets out to find herself. What she finds is a guy named Andrew Parrish, someone not so very different from her and who harbors his own dark secrets. But Camryn swore never to let down her walls again. And she vowed never to fall in love.

But with Andrew, Camryn finds herself doing a lot of things she never thought she’d do. He shows her what it’s really like to live out-of-the-box and to give in to her deepest, darkest desires. On their sporadic road-trip he becomes the center of her exciting and daring new life, pulling love and lust and emotion out of her in ways she never imagined possible. But will Andrew’s dark secret push them inseparably together, or tear them completely apart?

Ready for one hot roller-coaster? I am! Where do I sign up! I totally think you need a suitcase to hold all your crazy emotions as you prepare yourself for the journey. Oh my! I just can’t….Totally need to control my emotions before I open up right away. Let’s start with the beginning…

Camryn, a 20 years-old, based in North Carolina had once a good life. She was this bubbly free spirit hippy that enjoy the beauty of eveything. But we all know, life eventually has a turn… in her case, it was for the worse. Her parents divorced, and the man she loved so much, Ian, her boyfriend,  had died in a tragic car accident. If this wasn’t enough for her, Camryn was faced with more troubles when she found out her brother was arrested for killing a man during a DUI. Remember friends, everything comes in THREES!

This explains how much pain she was dealing with at the beginning. So I understood why she wanted to pick up and leave this place that reminded her of a life she once had. Did I blame her for going a tad “cray cray” during this? Hell no. Poor girl was overwhelmed that no wonder she did some messed up things.

After a night at a club partying with her friend, she decided she had to get the hell out of this place(* this is the point where EVERYTHING became a snowball effect).  Packing up her bags, she headed to the bus stop to head to a new life…did she know where it was going? Nope–but do we ever know where the hell we are going at a time where we feel completely and utterly gone from existences?


The bus was her ticket to a new life. Cue the hot good-looking man that is going to screw up her plans. Andrew is pretty much the same basket case just like her (perfect match eva!), which life had somehow intertwine them together to become friends during this journey. Their friendship grew more to something like a romance as they travel on this unplanned route for freedom. I guess both of them were fighting off the ghosts of their past in order to become happy again.

I loved how you could feel their emotions through their POV. I am a sucker for that style of writing, because I want to feel what they have to endure in a challenging time. As well, the fact that Andrew wanted nothing more than to help Cam find herself was actually addicting. I’ve always wanted to do a trip where I throw caution to the wind and try to find myself; however, it’s not always the case. As they get keys to a car and follow whatever tells them, their lives are faced with reality..

Honestly, at first I was thinking this was going to be the usual style of “random meeting” plot; but as it unfolded,  I was so drawn to the characters and in hopes it was going to be something good for them. I love how it was funny, exciting, dangerous, and sad. It made you fall quickly for them as they try and find themselves. Overall, I thoroughly enjoyed how Redmerski had made the connection so settle that it felt so real between the two main characters. It didn’t feel like “instant love” when she capture their romance on the page. Cam was in this bubble that she created because of all the negative things that happen to her, but Andrew just kept poking at it until finally it burst. Giving her a sight on seeing as opposed to always living in darkness.

The ending. Oh for the love, it was brutal. Not in a terrible “I hate this concept” way but more like, “STOP MAKING ME BLOODY CRY TO THIS STORY” kind. I am so happy their is a part DUO, The Edge of Always because I want to know how the characters….. Well you need to read it, why don’t you?