Sometimes your life is split by a single decision.
I’ve spent every day of the last seven years regretting mine: he left, and I didn’t follow. A thousand letters went unanswered, my words like petals in the wind, spinning away into nothing, taking me with them.
But now he’s back.
I barely recognize the man he’s become, but I can still see a glimmer of the boy who asked me to be his forever, the boy I walked away from when I was young and afraid.
Maybe if he’d come home under better circumstances, he could speak to me without anger in his voice. Maybe if I’d said yes all those years ago, he’d look at me without the weight of rejection in his eyes. Maybe if things were different, we would have had a chance.
One regretted decision sent him away. One painful journey brought him back to me. I only wish I could keep him.
*A contemporary romance inspired by Jane Austen’s Persuasion*
(Thank-you to Staci Hart for sending me an ARC in exchange for an honest review)
“There is no length to love; it’s infinite. It lives in you always. Hold on to it.”
Nothing lasts forever. As much as we want to hold onto whatever it is, sometimes it slips through our hands. We’d tell ourselves nothing can take it away, but we have no control of what does happen. Our empty hearts, filled with loneliness, is only the result of how easy something so beautiful can disintegrate right in front of our own eyes. We become strangers of that feeling because we are tired of the pain. Sometimes, that wave of happiness that flushes one self, causes a trigger of memories that makes us doubt. What if you had one more chance? One more opportunity to make it right? A Thousand Letters by Staci Hart is a story about a love that can never be forgotten, but embraced overtime.
Elliot is lost. She has no clue of what she wants to do in her life. She is working as a nanny for her sister as she tries to get into creative writing. She is the definition of a doormat. Letting everyone inflict pain onto her as she lets herself lay there taking the beatings. Her family is nasty towards her, as she always lets them use her for their needs. Everything changes when someone close to her is dying. Her best friend’s dad, was someone who truly emphasizes her abilities to get her into writing. Her idol was slipping out of her life. So, Sophie relied on Elliot during this time, to help her mourn when she was doing just that. Someone else also relied on her as well, Wade. Elliot and Wade were high school sweethearts. Madly in love, throw caution to the wind type. Like most young love, they had broken-up; shattered from the dreams of being together forever. There is hatred in their eyes. Their love was so amped at the time, that it left a bitterness in their heart when both of them slipped away.
Wade ran off to the army, and Elliot had to try to pick up the pieces over the years. She had written to him. She had tried her best to speak to him, but he was a coward. He asked her to marry him before he left but she said she needed time. That’s all she wanted. The funny thing about life is that we all demand more time, when we actually do already have it. We just let it slip away. The thunder of their emotions ignited when they finally saw each other after so many years. Years that had slipped away. For Wade, he let time try to heal his wombs, but the problem with that it doesn’t really do much. It’s just pending the inevitable.
“I found myself in the dark, found her in the dark. I found light and truth in the darkness, hiding there where I couldn’t see, right in front of me the whole time. And all I had to do was reach out and touch her.”
I truly love second chance love stories because I believe in them. I think sometimes we need that break, or we need to see it from the outside to understand what had happened. These two characters ended things at a time where it felt like their worlds were closing in, molded their perception. It gave them an understanding that regret will always succeed no matter how much they had tried to hide it. What I loved about this story was that Hart was retelling the story of Persuasion, and she did fantastic portraying it. I will say their love was addictive. They fought for most of the book and all you wished was for him to make a move. It kept you on the edge because all you wanted was for them to see themselves through each other’s eyes. To say their love was dead, was untrue. Love never dies—it fades; but if you catch it, you’ll have another spark the flame. It was so intoxicating for both of them; that as much as they tried to fight it, they were drunk in their own love.
This was heartbreaking and bittersweet. Kind and broken. The story was forever true in my eyes of what others have felt, and all we had left was time. It can tend a womb but never really fix it because we will always have the scar. The scar that once shown us what love can really be. Staci Hart truly smash my emotions (a lot of tissues were needed), and given me a slither of hope. I gulped up this story and was left with a rush of emotions on this ride. If you’re looking for something just like that, high recommend this book.